One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice –
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
“Mend my life!”
each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do –
determined to save
the only life you could save.
~ Mary Oliver ~
I read this poem in Oprah’s magazine five years ago and it changed my life. The only voices I heard before were those of family and friends who needed me, having denied my own voice for so long I didn’t recognize it any more. I have gradually come out of that dead state and have learned to listen to my own heart once again. The last five years I have slowly been getting to know an old friend… myself.
I wish you peace on your journey.
I just happened upon your blog from SuziBlu’s and found this post…thanks, I needed to read this poem today AND probably every day! Love Mary Oliver! Thanks for the bit of serendipity!
Your kitty is a doll! My dog likes to eat out of my art trash too, unfortunately it is always something that makes a huge mess on the carpet! BLEH!